I ought to smile more,just like the old days.

I miss the old day,when everything is filled with smile,joy,and beautiful memories.when everything were connected.When your soul is not there,but its always belong there.When i'm still a cherish and joy creature.When im facing a heavy burden,they're always there everything helping me to carry those burden and throw it away.When we go to the place we use to be every wednesday and thursday,called the "park of memories", we are always swing,sing,and laugh together.

When we're enjoy the sea scenery while jogging to the sea every morning on holiday.When we use to fill those wall with marker and spray can.When the rainy day's coming,while i'm playing with my computer in the night, suddenly i heard someone's calling my name "Hey Badi come down here,Lets go to the McDonald's."it's my best friend and then we're going to the mcdonalds and after that we're going to the "park of memories",hahaha damnnn!!!it's so damn cold there,but still we're laughing with the warm soul inside.And now,my life's really different.everything burst into nothing and filled with the frown,darkness,and loneliness.every single laugh is just pretending,at least im smiling even its fake.Now i became i selfish wretch ,while my heart are hammering inside.And now i dont know what to do,i think trust is all i need to change everything.im just lost and tired.But there's an angel in my sight,and its slowly remove my darkness. :) even im just nothing -